Here we go

Sunday morning and Cathy feels bad and is mad because I gave her brother $5 in change out of her purse to get cigarettes. I can't say much to her. We are broke and doing without things already ourselves. But she doesn't have to just keep on and on and on about it though. She is going to make a bad situation worse if she keeps it up. Maybe it is time for both of us to move on. Impossible. Cathy has no thoughts of doing anything herself besides stating" I want to go home to mama". Her mother has been dead for many years. And I can't do anything to cause harm to her. And I'm a coward when it comes to such a permanent solution. So I will suffer. And Cathy will suffer. And Cathy will make sure I will suffer. This suks. Later.