Sunday, April 12, 2009

Can't save the world but I can make Cathy happy

Its been awhile and the world is different/same . We have a new administration that said all the right things to get elected but is now saying some things different from what he said before the election. It seems like the previous administration did something like that! What can I do about it? Nothing. I have a criminal record because I did what I thought was a favor for a friend when I was 17 years old and am not allowed to vote. So now I will concentrate on something I can do.
I will make Cathy's life as pleasant as I can. She has been a special person her entire life and I have gotten to appreciate what she is and what she means to me. She has a form of Muscular Dystrophy and is not going to make it to her 80th birthday most likely but I can hope. Our olodest son had the same disorder till he died in 2001 at the age of 24. The thing about her illness/condition is that for the last few years, she doesn't heal any more from anything more than a very slight injury like maybe a small cut on her finger. She has been unstable and needed someone helping her keep her ballance to get around for the past 5 or 6 years. Thats has been mostly me. I let her go where she wanted and with whom she would want to go with not wanting to make her feel like I was keeping her a prinsoner. I let our last remaining son take her to a family gathering just before halloween. Now, she has a broken leg. She just lost her ballance and fell on an uneven area of ground and broke it in two places. That was almost 6 months ago and it isn't healing. She now has to depend on me for everything. She can move about as long as she wears a cast that has been cut in two to make a sort of leg brace and I carry her weight and don't let her fall again. She has a fighting spirit and that is troubling. She will try to do things on her own and I found her on the floor, trying to get herself up before I found her. I don't think I could retain my sanity if she broke the other leg so I basicly don't get out of hearing range of her except when absolutly necessary anymore. I am trying to get into a position where I can move her back to Florida where she/we can get some help with her care so I don't have to be afraid of leaving her alone to go to the store or pharmacy. My mother died two years ago and left a house to me and what used to be my brother and a nephew from another brother that died years ago. I went to move Cathy into the house in Fl. and found my brother had been scheeming to use some old "squatters rights" laws to steal everything for himself. He called the police and tried to have us arrested for breaking and entering. They wouldn't arrest us as long as we complied with their directives to leave. We haven't had the house probate process started and had been just letting "him" take care of things so no one had clear title to the house. I am now in the process of rectifying that mistake. I just hate having to spend what few funds we have on a lawyer.
He is doing this to an invalide in a wheel chair that had generously cooked meals for him and washed clothes for him at times in the past. That is why I no longer have a brother. Don't get me wrong, I'm not some self sacrificing do gooder. I just don't want to be left alone in this world. I can't see myself finding anyone I could put up with in such close quarters and don't believe anyone could put up with me long enough to appreciate the ego centric mess that is ME.
I have recently been a part of a group about Vandwelling and decided to make/return to this blog and maybe let some of the people that I have come to consider friends have an idea of what the wack job they have let into their midst is about.