Really suks again

  Another day and I can't get my Xanax refilled because my doctor is on vacation. As soon as I start depending on anyone besides myself , they fuk things up for me. I doon't know why things are getting so bad right now. I actually had a decent nights sleep for me. I slept for almpst 5 hours straight. And I took a short nap before the sun started showing. Having a hard time even putting a complete sentence together. tears won't stop. Cathy's a little week and she is having some confusion today. I'm going to have to call a friend for a little help. Can't be acting like this when Cathy needs me to help her. And now she's passing out again. later